Jessa Duggar reveals she suffered a miscarriage while pregnant with her fifth child

Jessa Duggar revealed that she suffered a miscarriage over the holidays, while pregnant with her fifth child.

The 19 Kids and Counting alum, 30, shared her loss in a nearly 19-minute long YouTube video titled Heartbreak Over the Holidays, which documented her pregnancy journey as well as the aftermath of the news that she had miscarried.

The star – who’s been married to Ben Seewald, 27, since 2014 and who welcomed her fourth child in July 2021 – recalled the moment she found out about the miscarriage, when her ultrasound technician told her, ‘The sac looks good. The baby does not.’

‘Nothing could’ve prepared me for the weight of those words at that moment,’ she shared, adding, ‘At that moment I was just in complete shock. I didn’t have words. I just immediately started crying.’

Jessa – who shares sons Spurgeon, 7, and Henry, 6, and daughters Ivy, 3, and Fern, 19 months, with Ben – remembered how the technician then left the room as she and her husband began ‘trying to process the loss [while] sitting there and holding hands and crying.’

Heartbreak: The reality TV star, 30, shared her loss in a YouTube video titled Heartbreak Over the Holidays, which documented her pregnancy as well as the aftermath of her miscarriage

The reality TV star started out the video with touching footage of her and Ben telling their kids that she was pregnant.

Just a few minutes later she gave a pregnancy update at 11 weeks along, and shared that things have been going really well overall, but she has been feeling ‘really sick’ and had ‘some spotting.’

‘It does seem a bit concerning,’ she stated, adding that she scheduled an ultrasound for the next day to ‘see how everything is going.’

Later she spoke about the appointment, revealing that the technician sounded concerned as soon as she took a look at the baby, before informing her what had happened.

‘I feel like in some ways miscarriages can be so jarring because you don’t have clear signs of something going wrong,’ she said. ‘I had minimal spotting for 24 hours, and that was it.’

Because of complication risks, Jessa checked in to a hospital and had a dilation and curettage procedure.

She recalled the heartbreaking moments leading up to it: ‘Right as they were wheeling me back [to the operating room], I just wanted to ask, like, “Just, can I please have one more ultrasound? Please, somebody check, make sure,”‘ she said.

‘I was having all these fears that maybe they got something wrong… You know It’s irrational, but you just feel scared.’

Sad news: The 19 Kids and Counting alum recalled the moment she found out about the miscarriage, when her ultrasound technician told her, ‘The sac looks good. The baby does not’

Difficult time: ‘Nothing could’ve prepared me for the weight of those words at that moment,’ she shared, adding, ‘I didn’t have words. I just immediately started crying’

Her support: Jessa – who’s been married to Ben Seewald, 27, since 2014 – remembered how the technician left the room as she and her husband began ‘trying to process the loss [while] sitting there and holding hands and crying’

Touching: She started out the video with touching footage of her and Ben telling their four kids that she was pregnant

Family: The couple share sons Spurgeon, 7, and Henry, 6, and daughters Ivy, 3, and Fern, 19 months

The star got emotional while discussing waking up from the procedure, recalling the ‘hollow feeling inside’ because ‘the life that was in you is no longer there and you never did get to see your baby and say those goodbyes.’

However, Jessa found solace in her Christian faith, sharing: ‘I was able to thank God in that moment for giving us this life, even if we wouldn’t be able to hold this baby in our arms.’

‘When you lose someone so dear to you, it does makes heaven that much sweeter. We talked about that with the kids. We can’t wait to meet this little one in heaven one day,’ she added.

At the end of the video she announced that she planned to ‘take a break’ on social media and focus on her recovery.

Jessa previously opted to welcome her fourth child in the hospital, unlike her past three pregnancies, which were all home births — with two that ultimately sent her to the hospital in an ambulance.

She had given birth to Spurgeon, Henry, and Ivy at home, but twice experienced dangerous hemorrhaging that saw her rushed to the hospital immediately following delivery.

All of the mother-of-four’s home births were captured on camera for the family’s TLC series Counting On, which has since been cancelled.

Prior pregnancy: Jessa and Ben announced that they were expecting their fourth child in February 2021, and welcomed Fern in July of that year

Claim to fame: Jessa is best known for being part of the cast of TLC’s reality shows 19 Kids and Counting, and Counting On, both of which have since been cancelled